O followers =) .. lmao love to know my blog is touching millions of followers.. ah ha just kiddin..
the reason i write this blog is for myself... i sometimes need to let out how im feeling when no one is around... just reflect on life and its complexities.

Side Note: 4/5 finals done... one more to go! On to the Next! Goal is to get it done by 10pm!
Hopefully my motivation kicks in!

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xoxo,

K

12-16-09

Never a failure, always a lesson!

I am soo ready for my final tommorrow! =) Bring it! I was thinking and the more i think about it the more I realize! I am gonna rock this final. JMJ - Jesus Mary Joseph +

SideNote: No hay nadie como ella! it's so true though! I have yet to meet anyone like me. I am soo glad I am the way i am! Lmao...!!

Another SideNote: I love Keeping up with the Kardashians! lol! I am soo glad there is a new season! lmao!!!!!!

anyway i'm super tired!
xoxo,
K

12-12-09

Quick update:
Procrastination has gotten the best of me but it won't stop me. Tommorrow is a new day and I rock my spanish test! That's a fact! =) I will write more after my test.

Side note:
The only people you need in your life are the ones who prove they need you in theirs.

12-11-09

One final down... four more to go!

I am soo ready to get into Christmas mood. Christmas is one of my favorite times of year! I love window shopping NYC just taking in the energy of all the people. I love the smell of pine needles and the aroma of delicious hot chocolate =) The best thing about the holidays is finding someone to snuggle up to. Ah ha jk! I love all the Christmas movies! =) and Christmas music! OHHHH and Three Kings Day! It's basically my favorite holiday! We celebrate it every year! We mostly get small gifts for Three King's Day since we also celebrate Christmas! =) Hee hee! I wish I could write more I will once I'm done with Finals =)! I have one bring and early tomorrow morning! 9 am baby!!!! =) I also want to note I had a really good time yesterday! There is a new person in my life.. He is unlike anyone I met.. we will see what happens... lmao! With this one, I will try to show him who I am and I am not going to hide my truth or be scared he won't like me because if he doesn't like me that's his problem. I will find someone who is thrilled to get to know me and who will want to spend time with me. It's as simple as that. No if and buts about it. End of story.
Toodles Lovelies,
-K

12-10-09

one of my favorite fashion illustrators of all time : Antonio Lopez! A boricua of course =)
more about him later but i thought i would post some of my fav pics!

12-10-09

I just got interviewed for something very exciting =) I hope i get chosen!!!! I would love to make a difference and this is my ticket in!!!! It will only happen with GOD's graces though! I have a feeling there are huge things in store for me. Things I would have never imagained! =) Wish me luck yall! Soon I will be unstoppable! <3 !
Ciao!
Kiss Kiss!
-K

12- 9- 09

Sidenote: I am a sucker for Romance <3 !!!

I'm really feeling the bedrock video!!! =) I went to elementary and high school with one of the girls in the video! She's doing big things!

Bedrock =)
http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshhRDtcdGXu4a4yp2Mq<-- check it out lol!! I love this song soo much!!!

Under- Pleasure P
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cD2X_Vfb0Es

Invented Sex - Trey Songz
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sOZEJvkq3Q&feature=channel

12-9-09

Today I am in a weird place. I should be studying but i can't get my mind off certain things. Why is it hard to let go of people who you once had feelings for even though you know they are who you thought they were... like the guy who i was seeing earlier this semester. He was younger than me by 2 years but despite the lack of maturity, I thought i would give it a chance. I really fell hard when he stopped talking to me out of the blue. He did have a good heart but he wasn't willing to go the extra mile to make things work. He was like a kid who wears PJs to class they are there but they didn't bother getting dressed. He was there but he wasn't adding anything to my life besides temporary happiness. This is when i realized that what i need is someone who will be a positive addition rather than someone who doesn't bring anything except physical things. We just had an instant attraction nothing substantial that could build a sucessful friendship or relationship. He lacked motivation, determination and i couldn't even see where he was going or what he wanted to do. He was so conflicted all the time and he gave into peer pressure. I wasn't sure who he was. I knew who i was though, i did lose sight of things with him though which should have been a sign that he wasn't right for me.

I am a sucker for love. In the past, I haven't always been this way. I haven't always wanted to find someone else to share my life with. I was young and I just wanted to have fun. I didn't want to find love because I didn't even know what love really was. I kept my guard so far up that i would constantly confuse guys but i thought better them than me. I really want to get to know someone. One of my main thrills in life is getting to know other people. It is something that really is exciting to me. Recently I've met a couple of new guys but few have that extra something that makes me want to get to know them. There is one though. We will see how that goes.

Exams really have got me going crazy!!!! I just want to scream! Soon they will be over! I just gotta make sure I don't lose sight of the goal! The goal is what should push me forward! =) This semester has been one of growth. I let someone close to me, closer than i ever have which was really scary especially since he wasn't really ready for it and we were on different pages and mindset but i am not sorry I let him close. I still care about him. He has wonderful qualities and i wish i could still be friends with him but i don't have control of other people or their wants/desires so for now we aren't really friends. Maybe one day he will realize the good in me.

"Never a failure, always a lesson" - this quote is something I live by. Every single day is a learning experience. There is no such thing as failure only lessons learned. I guess it's optimistic but when you live in the Yes, positive things happen to you. When you live in the No, you are less likely to be success I find.

I am loving Alicia Keys' new album The Element of Freedom! =) I find her so inspiring because she is not doing what she does to make money but she is doing it to touch people with her music.
I have been listening to her album for the last 48 hours. lol!!! Man.. she is one of my favorite artists of all time! Anyway I need to get back to studying.
Ciao!
-K

Today I feel so numb. So completely and totally numb. It's partly because I have the flu and i feel like my medication is making me so loopy. So emotional. Usually i don't let my emotions out so easily but i feel like i am in a place where i have no choice. My heart is definitely hurt. I wouldn't say broken because I wasn't in love but I lost someone i truly felt something for. I never really felt for someone like this. But my whole body feels numb because He is basically pushed me out of his life. He ignored every single one of my text messages. He hurt me so bad because he didn't even have the decency to end things with me. I am just in shock you know. Just complete and utter shock because he just abandoned me. I was so happy and the next moment i wasn't. He just didn't even give me a chance and it's such a weird feeling.

Love Letters =)

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

-Beethoven to his beloved :)

I really really love this letter.. i hope one day someone can show me as much love as he has shown his love <3>

The Hague 1713

I am a prisoner here in the name of the King;
they can take my life, but not the love that I feel for you.

Yes, my adorable mistress, to-night I shall see you, if I had to put my head on the block to do it.

For heaven's sake, do not speak to me in such disastrous terms as you write; you must live and be cautious; beware of Madame your mother as of your worst enemy.

What do I say?

Beware of everybody; trust no one; keep yourself in readiness, as soon as the moon is visible; I shall leave the hotel incognito, take a carriage or a chaise, we shall drive like the wind to Sheveningen; I shall take paper and ink with me; we shall write our letters.

If you love me, reassure yourself; and call all your strength and presence of mind to your aid; do not let your mother notice anything, try to have your pictures, and be assured that the menace of the greatest tortures will not prevent me to serve you.

No, nothing has the power to part me from you; our love is based upon virtue, and will last as long as our lives.

Adieu, there is nothing that I will not brave for your sake; you deserve much more than that.

Adieu, my dear heart!

Arout
(Voltaire)


I love these letters =)
xoxo

- K

9-22-09

This look is hot fire! I'd def rock it to a party!


Websites I find interesting:
http://www.ashadedviewonfashion.com/
http://www.fashionista.com/
http://www.fashionologie.com/
http://stylebubble.typepad.com/
http://www.showstudio.com/blog/

I enjoyed the Jaeger London show - Spring 2010.
All pieces I would definitely rock.

Side Note: I just saw my future boo. He's really cute and caring. I really can't wait till we get to spend one on one time together. I really like him but I can't show him yet. It's too early. It is pouring rain today which makes it kinda gloomy here but I love the rain. it is the strangest comfort. Maybe not the being wet part but the glow of the wet rain on the pavement always is comforting to me. Raindrops are really interesting like raining crystals. I will post a more suitable blog entry later. I am between classes right now so you understand.
Ta Ta Darlings.

Top Shop's Unique Show - Spring 2010 - September 21, 2009
- I absolutely love the tights!!!

Tommy Hilfiger 2010 Spring Runway show.

I absolutely love this look it's so Studio 54! It is reminiscent of Halston. I really love this. I would rock it with 6 inch heels =) If I had a time machine, I would go to Studio 54 to hang with Andy Warhol!!

This foto reminds me of times where I felt lonely and then I realized I am never alone. I always have something to live for. When i look at this foto, I think of Me, Myself and I - By Billie Holiday =)

Websites I found interesting:

http://www.newyorktimes.com/

http://www.nylonmag.com/

http://thesartorialist.blogspot.com/

Shows I feel are watch worthy:

Kourtney and Khloe take miami

Drop Dead Diva

My Antonio ( lolz sorry I love trashy TV lmao)

Songs I am currently listening to:

Me, Myself and I - Billie Holiday

Empire State of Mind - Jay Z ft. Alicia Keys

Miles Davis - Freddie Freeloader

A Tribe Called Quest - Electric Relaxation

Common- I use to love H.E.R.

Side Note: I love this dress from TOP SHOP!!! I Absolutely want it!

9-21-09

It's weird so much has changed in less than a week. The guy that i mentioned in the previous blog entry basically pissed himself out of my life. He became a bugaboo and for what? He doesn't really like me. He just likes what i can do for him and how i look physically. I'm tired of guys like that. I am not even looking for love but geez can someone just get to know me for a change? I have developed feelings for this guy I met on my birthday. I really like him which is strange because I haven't found someone I geniunely liked in a long time. I just hope I don't let fear get in the way. I am reluctant to let him close because I sense he may not be ready for a woman like me. Only time will tell. Tonight I am looking forward to Greek, Gossip Girl and Melrose Place. Probably won't get to see them all but I am looking forward to watching them. This is it for now.
Ta Ta Darlings =)

Side note: More and more I realize that I'm highly analytical. I analyze everything to death. I should just let things happen and not make a pros and cons list for once lol.

9-15-09

My life seems to be a a weird place right now. There aren't many constants. Everything is always changing and evolving. Thoughts are always streaming through my mind. I keep thinking of the last time i was with him. The last time he held me and told me I looked so sexy and how he missed me. He was still not truly mine. He was some other girl's a nameless girl i couldn't even picture. Though ironically, her picture was in his phone. He told me that I was the best and he missed me. It had been 6 months since we've seen each other. But i couldn't help but wonder did he miss the sex or me? It was so hard to let him go. He is gorgeous and everything i would want in a guy physically but his personality and his values were seriously lacking. In a fantasy world, I would be his girl. Unofficial or Official.. just didn't matter. What mattered was that i was with him and he wanted me. He wanted me in his life but I couldn't be his girl. It would be beneath me. I didn't deserve to be with a guy who would cheat on me.

side note : I LOVE.... that episode of Sex and the City where Miranda fakes a sonogram =) Her face is priceless.