Never a Failure.. Always a Lesson

Today I feel so numb. So completely and totally numb. It's partly because I have the flu and i feel like my medication is making me so loopy. So emotional. Usually i don't let my emotions out so easily but i feel like i am in a place where i have no choice. My heart is definitely hurt. I wouldn't say broken because I wasn't in love but I lost someone i truly felt something for. I never really felt for someone like this. But my whole body feels numb because He is basically pushed me out of his life. He ignored every single one of my text messages. He hurt me so bad because he didn't even have the decency to end things with me. I am just in shock you know. Just complete and utter shock because he just abandoned me. I was so happy and the next moment i wasn't. He just didn't even give me a chance and it's such a weird feeling.